No matter what I do it’s the fault of a name
A different part of me eaten by the day
I wonder which part of my soul is next to tear?
Will every piece being gone make me disappear?
The options not clear and abundant they present themselves
Which to pick that won’t lead me to eternal sadness?
My foot trembles before I step on a path
And I fear now for what I will not have
Drowning before I get to ride in the sun along the coast
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My footsteps on the sand leaving me as I get further lost
My throat itching from the yelling and screaming
My tongue paralyzed to say what I’m feeling
A few dozen voices whisper what gets drilled in my head
And I miss the days as I soak in my dread
Which path to take when ambitions make them seem bleak
A passing fad to lead to certain guarantee
Something more to drown in uncertainty
And here I float
In the ocean that my body it holds
Paralyzed by the demon that is disappointment
Flayed by daily repetition as a means to forget
Yet the safety lies in torment
The cycle suppresses the thoughts of that demon
Divided as the land I call my home
And nowhere do I feel like I belong
Foreign faces scare me and their looks anxiety enforce
Familiar faces tear me apart when their look of worry grows
My throat itching from the yelling and screaming
My tongue paralyzed to say what I’m feeling
A few dozen voices whisper what gets drilled in my head
And I miss the days as I soak in my dread
My body heavy from the thrashing until dipped in red
Which path to take when ambitions make them seem bleak
A passing fad to lead to certain guarantee
Something more to drown in uncertainty
And here I float
In the ocean that my body it holds
Better keep swimming to find my way
The anger fueling my life so my body won’t give in
Hope I don’t succumb and drown before it’s my day
Wish the sandy beaches back at me would wave
The ocean trying to take me away
