I wasn't stupid enough not tnize how unique my situation was. I was only able to reach the true limit because of my uniqueness. But logic said that I pay a high price for these bes and that scared me. One might look at my skills and and cursed teique and you see all the bes but ighe cost of them. My first skill for example means that I don't have mana and 't use magic. I've seen enough anime and read enough books to know that mana erior energy type and I traded that for something worse.-

  Cursed energy and teiques were ultimately limited in what they allowed even if they appear overwhelmingly better than mana and magic at first gake my cursed teique for example that has so many uses that it could make anyone in the world jealous. The esseny teique though was that I could refine and transform anything from a living source. That st bit was a HEAVY restri for a craftsman. There are many things that I 't use my teique on so instead I o work extra hard to close the gap with the things I use it on.-

  The existence of the duhat is alive is the only reason my cursed teique is so valuable as without it like if I was oh my teique would be way more difficult to do anything meaningful with. Even further I had to learhing I knew about cursed energy from what I had from the manga pared to the mages of this world that had thousands of years of researd experimentation to perfect what they knew of mana. you even begin to imagihe sheer handicap that put me at?-

  I almost died just to discover that as a lower form of energy mana potions are several times more effective on cursed energy pared to mana. Then there was the o make breakthroughs in how I used cursed energy and my teique that normal adventurers don't o do. Mana and magi this world funed in such a way that purely training is pretty much all anyone o succeed at it. Cursed energy isn't like that, I o suffer intense experiences in order to grow.-

  Then you might ask about advanced cursed teiques like domain expansion and reverse curse teique and I say for certain that I have no fug idea. The manga's information on how those work exactly was vague as shit beyoive aive cursed energy made positive and that domains were an expansion and maion of ones ieique. You see the sheer amount of fug nothing that tells me? How does two ive make a positive? What the fuck does expanding and maing a teique even mean? All these details that a mage in this world would know as a matter of course for mana are things I have to figure out on my own.-

  I know I make it seem like it's easy but the truth of the matter is that I'm flying by the seat of my pants here and just hoping to whatever being will listen that I don't implode. The funny thing is that what terrifies me the most is one way I think of as obvious to improve my own stats, self refi. I could totally use my teique on myself to improve my body and by extension stats but i am scared to try.-

  I have no idea what that may do to me. Will I stop being human? Will I bee a curse hybrid or full blown cursed spirit? I have no idea at all and that aloerrifies me into avoiding it at all cost. What has me just as nervous is that I have no idea how leveling up will effect me since I don't have mana. When a normal adventurer levels up their vessel is expanded and refined in a metaphysical se otherwise they are the same race as before since mana was already just as much a part of their existence as anything else.-

  Them getting closer to their mana didn't affect them at all but cursed energy was not the same at all. If when I level up my existence bees closer to cursed energy I may lose part of my humanity in the process. At some point I will end up more curse than human if that happens and I have no idea how that might effect me. I might be the same as always just different racially or I might turn out like all other curses that are evil things that are better off destroyed. My only hope was the iraits of the falna itself that responds to the emotions and desires of the person it is attached to.-

  I don't want to lose what makes me me even if that meant I would gain much more power. I desire godhood but not as some sort of evil deity maed through cursed energy. I hope with all that I am that the falna picks up on my will and desires when I level up and offers me a way forward as it has with so many other adventurers who have put in the effort to achieve their dreams.-

  I seem to have gotten rather side tracked now haven't I? Where was I? Ah right well after determining that my update would likely be the st before I leveled up I began pushing my physical abilities after each trip to the dungeohe few days. While I was doing that Bell had reached G in all of his physical stats which meant that it was finally time for him to go delving himself. Holy I wasn't worried all that much as his new armor made from the hides I collected and the refined carapaces and pincers of the ants meant unless he got way over his head nothing on the first four floors should be able to kill him unless it was a variant.-

  In addition I made sure that his ons and armor didn't stand out as anything valuable even if they were so nobody should get any funny ideas about killing him for his gear. Yes that was a very real possibility in the dungeon as some adventurers made their fortunes by robbing and sometimes even killing weaker adventurers. It was usually reserved for further into the duhough so he should be fine.-

  As I discovered limit siess only applies the first time you break your vessels current limit in sard. After all something that is broken ever be unbroken as even repairing the thing doesn't remove the fact it had been broken. Still I avoided using my cursed energy since I wanted my update to send all that smoke to my physical stats to get them to the limit. In this regard the dungeon had been oh so helpful as I hadn't ran into a si even after reag the seventh floor as if the pce was making them avoid me which made sense sidering the st time.