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CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE: Head In The Dust, Feet In The Fire

  Encampment

  – Continuous

  The

  fire pops low and mean between them, a pocket of light barely holding

  back the dark. Smoke clings to the air, bitter, oily, carrying the

  scent of damp leaves and old blood. Cain sits hunched over the map,

  elbows on his knees, fingers tracing routes that don’t feel real

  anymore. He’s already planned three different ways of attack, none

  of them clean.

  Arruns

  oils the action of his rifle with slow, practiced motions. Decimus

  sharpens a blade, the rasp steady, almost soothing. Tiber lounges

  back on his pack, boots toward the fire, watching the sparks drift up

  and vanish.

  Cain

  checks his wristband again.

  Too

  long.

  He

  exhales through his nose. “They shoulda been back by now.”

  No

  one answers right away.

  Decimus

  finally looks up, grin tugging at one corner of his mouth. “Relax,

  Aurellius. They’re together out there. Ain’t like Lucy’s

  helpless.” He gives the blade one last stroke. “They’ll be back

  any minute.”

  Cain

  doesn’t smile. His fingers curl against the map, knuckles

  whitening. “That ain’t what I’m worried about.”

  Tiber

  snorts softly. “Sure sounds like it is.”

  Cain

  shoots him a look. “Drop it.”

  Tiber

  only grins wider, eyes gleaming in the firelight. “C’mon now. You

  been starin’ at that clock like it owes you money. Girl’s been

  gone twenty minutes and you look like the world’s endin’.”

  Cain

  shifts, uncomfortable. “She just—” He stops, jaw tightening.

  “She don’t disappear. Not like that.”

  Decimus

  chuckles, low and warm. “Boy, if I didn’t know better, I’d say

  you’re jealous.”

  Cain’s

  ears burn. “I ain’t.”

  “Oh,

  you absolutely are,” Tiber says, rolling onto his side. “Ain’t

  nothin’ wrong with it neither. Kinda cute, honestly.”

  Cain’s

  face goes red clear down to his collar. He keeps his eyes on the map

  like it might save him. “We’re not… it ain’t like that.”

  Decimus

  arches a brow. “Then what is it like?”

  Silence

  stretches. The fire cracks again.

  Tiber

  answers for him, easy as breathing. “They’re a couple. Ain’t

  official, but hell, everyone knows it.”

  Cain

  finally looks up. “We are not.”

  That

  only makes them laugh.

  Arruns

  says nothing, but there’s a knowing tilt to his head as he checks

  his sights.

  Decimus

  leans back on his hands. “Alright, fair. Maybe you ain’t a

  couple.” His grin sharpens just a touch. “But you sure as sin

  want to be.”

  Cain

  opens his mouth, then closes it. His gaze flicks back toward the dark

  beyond the firelight, the direction Lucille and Marcus vanished into.

  His voice comes out quieter. “She don’t need… complications.”

  Tiber

  snorts. “Brother, this whole damn operation’s a complication.”

  Decimus

  nods. “And lemme tell you somethin’, Cain.” His tone shifts,

  not unkind, but serious now. “If you don’t say somethin’,

  someone else will. World don’t wait on polite boys.”

  Cain’s

  jaw tightens. He swallows. “She’s been through enough.”

  “And

  she’s still standin’,” Tiber says. “Stronger’n most of us.

  Ain’t made of glass.”

  Cain’s

  fingers curl into the dirt. “We been friends since we were kids.”

  “Exactly,”

  Tiber says, sitting up. “So what’s stoppin’ you?”

  Cain

  doesn’t answer.

  The

  firelight flickers across his face, catching the fear there, not of

  death, not of battle, but of losing something he’s never dared to

  name.

  Decimus

  sighs, softer now. “Ain’t nothin’ more dangerous than waitin’

  too long.”

  Cain

  looks back down the dark path, heart thudding. Somewhere out there,

  the mist thickens. The woods stay quiet.

  Too

  quiet.

  Arruns

  finally speaks, voice low, steady, cutting through the banter like a

  blade laid flat. “After this Final Exam,” he says,

  eyes on the fire, “that’s it. We graduate. No more Academy. No

  more nights like this.” He works the bolt once, clean and precise.

  “We go home. Or what passes for it. Join our Houses’ armies.”

  The

  words settle heavy.

  “For

  all we know,” Arruns adds, quieter, “this is the last time we’re

  sittin’ around a fire together.”

  Decimus

  lets out a rough laugh, like he’s trying to shake the weight off.

  “Hell, don’t get all funeral about it.” He grins, flashing

  teeth. “My House serves Tarsa. Marcus’ too.” He jerks his chin

  toward the dark. “If the gods ain’t cruel for once, we’ll end

  up in the same unit.”

  Tiber

  huffs. “Damn. That’s lucky as sin.”

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  “Luckier’n

  most get,” Decimus agrees.

  Cain

  doesn’t join in.

  He

  stares into the fire, watching embers collapse in on themselves,

  sparks leaping up just to die mid-air. The heat licks at his face,

  but he barely feels it.

  They’re

  right.

  Once

  they graduate, everything fractures. Orders. Banners. Bloodlines. A

  Domitian doesn’t choose where they go. She gets claimed. First

  House with the pull and the need takes her, wraps her in their

  colors, sends her to die somewhere far from anyone who remembers who

  she was before the armor.

  Lucille

  won’t belong to the Academy anymore.

  She

  won’t belong anywhere.

  Unless….

  His

  jaw tightens.

  Unless

  he says something.

  Cain

  swallows, throat dry. He thinks of her laugh when she forgets

  herself. The way she stands half a step in front of him without

  realizing it. The way her hand finds his sleeve in the dark like it’s

  instinct, like it’s always been that way.

  Fire

  crackles. Wood splits.

  If

  he stays silent, someone else won’t. A commander. A House. A man

  bolder than him.

  Graduation

  isn’t freedom.

  It’s

  a closing door.

  Cain

  lifts his gaze toward the black tree line, heart beating hard enough

  to hurt. Somewhere out there, Lucille is moving through the dark, and

  the distance between them feels wider than the war itself.

  The

  shrubs creak and crackle. Every rifle lifts a fraction. Every spine

  tightens.

  Cain’s

  head snaps up first, hand already drifting toward his weapon.

  Then

  a shape steps into the firelight.

  “Easy,”

  Marcus says, half under his breath, attention still angled toward the

  dark at their flank. One gauntleted hand reaches back, not grabbing,

  not pulling, just there. A polite touch. Knuckles brushing Lucille’s

  shoulder as he guides her through the thorny mess like she might snag

  herself if he doesn’t.

  She

  ducks under the last branch and emerges into the glow.

  Her

  arms are full of apples, red skins bruised and muddied but intact,

  cradled like something precious. Marcus has a thick bundle of sticks

  slung over his shoulder with a length of rope, leaves still clinging

  to the bark. He straightens and flashes that stupid, boyish grin at

  the group, like the world isn’t ending.

  “Y’all

  ain’t gonna believe this,” he says. “Found us some treats out

  there.”

  Lucille

  lingers a step behind him at first, shoulders drawn in, gaze flicking

  from face to face. Then her eyes land on Cain. Blue and green catch

  the firelight, polychromatic, bright, alive. Her whole face changes.

  The shy tension melts clean away, replaced with a soft, unmistakable

  smile, like the dark just loosened its grip on her chest.

  Cain’s

  heart stutters. He’s on his feet before he realizes he moved, boots

  crunching in the leaves as he closes the distance. “You’re back,”

  he blurts, then winces at himself.

  Lucille

  lets out a quiet breathy laugh. She shifts the apples, plucks one

  free, and holds it up to him. “We found pyre caps too,” she says,

  Southern drawl warm and familiar. “Ain’t much, but it’ll

  stretch. Figured we could save the MREs tonight.”

  Cain

  takes the apple like it’s something sacred. Their fingers brush. He

  doesn’t pull away fast enough. “That’s—yeah. That’s good

  thinkin’. I was worryin’,” he adds, softer.

  “I

  know,” she murmurs.

  Behind

  them, Decimus leans toward Tiber, voice low, grin sharp. “Look at

  him.”

  Tiber

  snorts quietly. “Boy’s got it bad.”

  Marcus

  watches the exchange for half a second too long. Something tightens

  behind his eyes. Then he schools his face smooth, turns, and drops

  the bundle of sticks beside the fire. Wood clacks together, sparks

  jumping.

  “Apples

  and pyre caps,” he says, practical again. “Good enough to keep us

  movin’.” He glances back toward the dark treeline. “Lucy swears

  she heard a deer out there, too.”

  Arruns

  shakes his head, calm as ever. “Not likely,” he says. “Not with

  simulated combat this close. Too much noise. Too many bodies movin’

  around.” He checks the perimeter once more. “Wildlife’ll be

  layin’ low.”

  Lucille

  nods, hugging the remaining apples to her chest. Cain stays close

  without thinking, relief settling in his bones like a drug.

  The

  fire crackles louder.

  Decimus

  and Tiber keep grinning.

  Decimus

  flicks his wrist toward the fire. “C’mon, then. Quit hoverin’

  like ghosts. Fire could use the fuel, and I’m starvin’ enough to

  eat bark at this point.”

  Marcus

  gives a short huff of a laugh and kicks a few sticks closer. Cain

  steps in beside Lucille without comment, easing the weight from her

  arms. “Here, gimme those,” he says gently, already tossing apples

  out in easy arcs. One to Arruns. One to Decimus. One to Tiber. Each

  catches with a quiet thump and a muttered thanks.

  They

  settle in close to the heat.

  Lucille

  sits between Cain and Marcus, knees drawn in, shoulders brushing both

  of them in the tight circle. The fire paints her in copper and

  shadow. She shrugs off her rucksack into her lap and opens it,

  pulling out the pyre caps she gathered, broad, orange-flecked flesh,

  still damp with night.

  Marcus

  sorts through the sticks, selecting a few straight ones, shaving the

  bark off with quick, careful strokes. He takes a pyre cap from

  Lucille, nodding once. “These’ll do,” he says. “Ain’t got

  salt, but roasted’s better’n raw.”

  He

  slices the cap into smaller chunks, spears them one by one, and sets

  the skewers over the coals. The mushroom flesh hisses faintly,

  releasing a rich, savory scent that cuts through the damp and smoke.

  Conversation

  drifts back in around them.

  Decimus

  talks about glory like it’s a foregone conclusion. “Gonna make my

  House proud,” he says, grin wide. “Ain’t stoppin’ ‘til

  they’re writin’ my name in the margins of history.”

  Tiber

  snorts. “You just wanna hear yourself announced.”

  “Damn

  right I do.”

  Arruns,

  quieter, speaks of command, of structure, of doing things right the

  first time so fewer people die the second. Marcus mentions House

  Tarsa again, half-hopeful, half-resigned. Cain listens, nodding where

  expected, eyes straying back to Lucille more than once.

  She

  doesn’t say much. She watches the food cook. Turns the skewer when

  Marcus hands it over. Takes small bites of the apple she kept, juice

  running down her thumb. The fire reflects in her eyes, but they’re

  far away, fixed on something none of them can see.

  Eventually

  Decimus glances her way. “What ‘bout you, Domitian?” he asks

  lightly. “What’re you gonna be when all this is done?”

  Lucille

  hesitates.

  The

  fire pops. The night presses in.

  She

  swallows, fingers tightening around the apple core. “I… don’t

  rightly know,” she says, voice soft, Southern drawl thinner than

  usual. “Guess I’ll go where they send me. See what sticks.”

  No

  bravado. No dream wrapped in steel.

  Just

  honesty.

  Cain’s

  jaw tightens. Marcus looks back to the fire. No one pushes her

  further.

  They

  eat in near silence after that, the mushrooms filling bellies but not

  the hollow spaces underneath. The flames crackle, throwing long

  shadows across the clearing, and above them the dark listens,

  patient, waiting, already counting how many of these futures it

  intends to take.

  The

  talk drifts on, half-formed dreams, half-jokes about rank and glory,

  as the first pyre caps come off the fire. Marcus hands one down the

  line.

  Decimus

  takes a bite and hums approval. “Ain’t half bad,” he says

  through a mouthful. “Might survive this exam after all.”

  Lucille

  doesn’t eat. She straightens. It’s sudden. Sharp. Like a wire

  pulled taut.

  Her

  head lifts, chin angling just a fraction. Her eyes unfocus from the

  fire and fix on nothing, and everything, beyond it. Her shoulders

  roll back, muscles coiling under skin still bruised and sore. One

  hand drifts off her knee, hovering.

  The

  change is so immediate the others feel it before they understand it.

  Conversation

  dies mid-sentence. Decimus freezes with his skewer halfway to his

  mouth. Marcus stills, knife paused in his fingers. Arruns’ grip

  tightens on his rifle. Tiber’s smile vanishes.

  Only

  the fire crackles.

  Lucille

  listens.

  Not

  with her ears alone, her whole body leans into it, breath slowing,

  eyes narrowing. Something in the dark speaks, and she hears it.

  Cain

  leans toward her, voice barely a breath. “Lucy,” he murmurs.

  “What d’you hear?”

  Her

  jaw tightens.

  A

  second passes. Then another.

  Her

  hand snaps out and closes around the grip of her shield.

  “Move,”

  she growls, low and urgent, Southern drawl flattened into something

  feral. “Now. Off the fire. Quiet.”

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