Josh listening to the sleeping giant breathing deeply behind him. He stared at the darkness in the room and waited for sleep to come. He should be plenty rexed.

  It was Gym Bro and Zoe’s six month anniversary, so Gym Bro took them out to the same French restaurant they’d gone to on their first date. It was a lovely evening filled with ughter and delicious food. Probably. Josh was a little fuzzy on the details, but he could remember having a good time.

  Josh definitely remembered the intense workout from when they got home. Thankfully, Gym Bro had enough regur sexual satisfaction and didn’t rip Zoe’s new dress from over-excitement. Josh recalled kissing, biting, scratching, cwing, growling. He’d really lost control of himself for a while there.

  Before they could go too far though, Gym Bro forced Josh onto the rge, plush, king-size bed Josh was now ying on and gave him the best massage he’d ever had. After thirty minutes of tenderness, it was only fair that Josh returned the favor by giving Gym Bro an equally amazing blowjob.

  Thanks to their increased flexibility, Josh was able to move in all sorts of positions to accommodate Gym Bro’s requests. One position was stuck in Josh’s mind. Gym Bro had them y on their back on the bed with their head leaning off the side. They held their mouth open wide and loose as Gym Bro thrust his cock into the open hole. If he concentrated, Josh could still feel his body shaking from the powerful dispy.

  However, Josh still felt a sick twisted guilt inside of him as he thought about the physical intimacy he and Gym Bro shared. As far as Gym Bro knew, all of their activities were done between him and his amazingly sexy girlfriend Zoe. Which, was already a point of guilt for Josh, but he’d already resigned himself to never admitting the truth. It was too weird and too te. And it was abundantly clear that Gym Bro had no desire to connect Zoe to Josh in any way shape or form.

  Which made it all the more confusing why Gym Bro seemed satisfied with Josh’s mouth. Sure, he knew his blowjob skills had done nothing but improve over the st several months, but he was also aware that most men wanted to have real sex. Plus, because of “Zoe’s” unique situation, she was pretty much only able to provide the utmost pinnacle of sexual acts: anal.

  Yet, Gym Bro never asked. On a few desperate occasions, Josh had even tried heavily suggesting that he was ready and willing to go all the way by shoving his plump ass in Gym Bro’s face or grinding against his cock as they spooned in bed. No matter how hard Gym Bro got, he would never make a move on their ass outside of grabbing and spanking.

  Josh y in the darkness and moved his butt around onto Gym Bro’s crotch. He immediately felt the rge member harden and respond to his touch. It didn’t make any sense. Even in his sleep, it was clear Gym Bro’s body wanted their ass, but it seemed like nothing was ever going to happen.

  The sick, twisted feeling came back. Josh couldn’t make sense of it. He obviously had no real desire to get fucked by a man. Technically, he knew, thanks to his toys and private sessions, that he was one of those special people Gym Bro mentioned that had a g-spot accessible through his butt, and he was more than intimately aware with how pleasurable it felt to have a penis-shaped object thrusting in and out of him.

  But, Josh was still a man deep down. And men didn’t want to get fucked by other men. He felt his brain sparking. True, men also didn’t want to fuck other men. Maybe that was the real issue. As much as Gym Bro pretended that Zoe and Josh were different people, maybe he couldn’t really separate them in his mind. That could expin why he seemed repulsed by the idea of ever seeing them without underwear on.

  Even tonight, on their special evening, Gym Bro was content to kiss their neck and whisper sweet things in their ear while running a luxurious bath, but he never stayed to watch. Josh enjoyed the bath, but a part of him kept wishing that Gym Bro would bathe with him. The tub was certainly big enough if Josh climbed on top of Gym Bro’s slick, wet body and snuggled into his comfortable, warm muscles.

  Josh squeezed his eyes shut and shook his head slightly against the silky pillow. He was getting confused again. There’s no way he was fantasizing about taking a fully naked bath with a man. All this time pretending to be Zoe was messing with his mind.

  Despite his resolve to remain Josh inside of his own mind, he still found himself referring to himself as Zoe or with feminine pronouns on many occasions. Sometimes it felt like he forgot he was ever Josh to begin with. Josh sighed and opened his eyes back to the darkness. He wished he could go to sleep and get back to his normal routine the next morning. It was easier to ignore all these troubling thoughts and feelings when he had something to do.

  Josh wasn’t sure how much more time passed before he finally decided to slowly extricate himself from Gym Bro’s embrace and leave the room. Josh stood out in the main area of the house and looked around. It was weird, he’d lived in this house for a year, but he couldn’t remember ever really looking at it. Not that there was anything special to see. What a dumb thing to think about.

  Josh walked over to Zoe’s room and opened the door. “Heh,” Josh chuckled to himself. “If this is Zoe’s room,” he said to himself, “and that’s Zoe Bang’s room,” he said as he gestured to the streaming room, “and that’s his room,” he said as he looked where he came from, “then I guess there’s no room for me.”

  Josh stepped into Zoe’s room and closed the door behind him. He turned the lights on the dim setting and crashed onto her bed. Was it weird that he felt more comfortable in here than in bed with his boyfriend? Zoe’s boyfriend. Josh rubbed his head and groaned. Everything was so messed up.

  He looked around the pink room. This was still his primary room since the streaming room was too small to fit all of Zoe’s clothes, accessories, her vanity, her mirror, and shoes. Josh ughed to himself. When he did finally earn enough money to move out, he’d probably have to start over with nothing. All of Zoe’s stuff were gifts from Gym Bro, so it wouldn’t be right to take it with him or to sell it.

  Josh felt his mind buzzing. Weird. He didn’t realize he’d been waiting to be able to move out tely. He wasn’t sure why he would want such a thing. Life was good here. He had a great job, he felt healthier and stronger, and being Gym Bro’s girlfriend was pretty fun. This st year had been amazing.

  Josh’s mind buzzed again. A year? He felt his heart sink. That didn’t feel right. He was supposed to only be here for six months. He never expected to start dating his roommate. And wasn’t he supposed to be getting rid of his boobs originally? He moved his arm and felt the rge masses jiggle against the slight push. They’d only gotten bigger this whole time. Somehow.

  Josh felt himself moving. He got down to the ground and reached under Zoe’s bed. He pulled out a small shark plushie and held it up to look at it. He took a moment and remembered a different time. It felt so long ago. A year had already passed, so he guessed it really was a long time ago.

  Josh reached inside of the shark’s mouth and pulled out his old cell phone. He couldn’t remember why he kept it hidden all this time. Gym Bro had bought Zoe a new phone shortly after they started dating, but it only had accounts and information reted to Zoe’s life for the st few months. The only numbers Zoe had were Gym Bro and Jack.

  Josh turned his phone on and pulled open Discord. This was the only way he could access it considering he’d forgotten all of his old passwords. His head was stuffed full with Zoe’s information for her Instagram, Discord, Twitch, Emails, and all her other social media.

  When the app opened, Josh was shocked to see a notification. From Alice. Josh froze and felt his eyes gze over. His mind sparked and buzzed. He blinked a few times and refocused his eyes on the phone screen. It definitely said he had a new message. Did he dare click on it? Who was he kidding? Of course he had to see it!

  BustBunny

  Hey there. I know I haven’t said anything to you in a long time. Also, sorry in advance if even seeing this message is painful for you. I wanted to let you know that I’ve thought about you a lot and I hope you’re doing well. You don’t need to reply at all, but if you wanted to, I would be willing to talk.

  Josh read the message over and over. He couldn’t tell what he felt. Happy? Terrified? Anxious? He read the message again. It sounded like Alice wanted to talk to them again. Should they reply? What would they even say? Josh started to type something before erasing it all. He felt so nervous.

  He scrolled up through their old messages. The sick feeling returned immediately. He’d said such awful things to Alice. Why did they do that? She’d been so sweet the entire time they’d known her. His mind buzzed. Oh, right. Alice’s cock.

  Memories of him moaning with pleasure from having Gym Bro’s cock thrusting in and out of his mouth earlier that evening pyed in Josh’s mind. He’d been such an idiot to blow up at Alice over something so small. He could have had a wonderful life with her if he’d known how easy it was for him to get used to sucking a cock. He felt sparks beginning to fly in his mind.

  Maybe.

  Maybe Alice wanted to get back together? Why else would she reach out to them? Josh felt his mind sparking. No, there’s no way that could happen. They were with Gym Bro now. Alice just wanted to talk.

  Of course. If those talks went well.

  First they needed to say something.

  Apologize! And beg for forgiveness!

  No, they can’t come across too desperate.

  But they were desperate.

  But they couldn’t let her know that if they were going to be her boyfriend again.

  Why were they desperate?

  They couldn’t be anyone’s boyfriend.

  Josh suddenly felt the world zoom in and out. He’d gotten lost in his own head for a moment. He looked back down at his phone. Good, he hadn’t accidentally sent anything weird.

  Like st time.

  Josh flinched at the thought, but he couldn’t stop himself from scrolling a little higher. He saw the video clip. Saved for eternity on a server somewhere in the world. He clicked on it. The person in the video was definitely cute. Had they really looked like that? Josh could see why he’d been confused for a woman so many times before. Of course, Zoe was way hotter than he’d ever been. He worked hard every day to make sure of that.

  Josh felt his stomach flip and spin as he watched this other version of himself fuck his own ass with a dildo. He couldn’t stop himself from thinking about how much of a better job he could do now. They were more flexible and had more experience with better angles for thrusting.

  One of their new toys could be mounted on a wall as well. That would have made for a much hotter scene. Josh felt his insides ache. Maybe he could get to sleep after a fun py session. Something to help tire him out a little more. Josh snapped himself back to attention.

  He was losing focus again. He read Alice’s message one more time. She wasn’t online right now, so it’s not like they would get a reply immediately anyways. And they only checked this phone on rare occasions. Josh gritted his teeth and sent a reply.

  Jawsh

  Hey Alice. Thanks for reaching out. I’m doing well. I would love to talk again.

  Was that enough? He needed something enticing.

  Jawsh

  Don’t worry about making me feel weird. This whole situation was my fault after all. And I realize now I made a big deal out of nothing. How’s life going for you?

  It would have to do. For now.

  ———————————

  Zoe ran her eyes across the beach’s shore. She let the sound of the crashing waves rush through her ears and into her body. She felt the warmth of the sun against her skin through her thin cover up. It was a beautiful day to be at the beach.

  “I’m all set here. You ready to start moving?” Jack’s voice intruded Zoe’s bliss. She rolled her eyes behind her sungsses and took a deep breath in. It was time to go to work. She pstered a grin on her face and walked over to where Jack was standing. She didn’t know why he had so many different bags with him. There was even some weird fabric booth set up in the sand now.

  “What’s that for?” Zoe asked as she gestured towards the weird booth. Jack replied, “For your outfit changes. That way you don’t have to walk all the way to the bathroom.” Zoe was confused. This was supposed to be a quick trial run of Jack taking photos for Zoe Bang’s Instagram. “Is that why you asked me to bring all of my swimsuits? I thought this was supposed to be quick.”

  Jack raised an eyebrow. “Didn’t Kev tell you my idea?” he asked. Zoe stared silently. Jack let out a sigh. “He’s always like this. He knows he’s smarter than most people so he rarely bothers expining things.” Zoe let a chuckle slip through. She quickly covered her mouth with one hand. She shouldn’t be ughing at Gym Bro like that.

  It was too te; Jack was already chuckling too. “You get it, right?” he said, “I mean, just because it’s the right decision doesn’t mean we should follow blindly. At least, that’s how I feel.” Zoe collected herself. She said, “If Gym--Kevin thinks I should do more outfits for the photos, then I’m sure it’s a good idea. I trust him.”

  “We were supposed to do a beach photo shoot soon anyways,” Zoe thought to herself.

  She grinned as Jack sputtered and flustered to try and make it sound like he hadn’t been talking bad about his friend behind his back. She knew Jack’s nice guy routine had to all be an act. She interrupted Jack’s noises and said, “So, where do you want me first?” She emphasized her point by letting her cover up slide off her shoulders. She expected Jack to lose his mind seeing her enhanced curves in the bikini. The company that made her tucking underwear also made swimsuits, so she was finally able to show off her sculpted legs instead of hiding under a skirt.

  Instead, Jack seemed to switch immediately into the mindset of a professional photographer. He gestured to an area and asked Zoe to stand in different poses and look in different directions. The more he ignored her, the more Zoe wanted to break his facade. She tried putting herself in seductive positions, but Jack ignored her signals and kept asking her to move and sit more naturally.

  She suffered through all of Jack’s ridiculous requests to have her walk and run along the beach in her different swimsuits. It seemed like he’d brought a video camera in addition to a regur camera. He said something about getting high-speed footage of her running. Which was obviously idiotic since people liked seeing girls run in slow-motion, not high-speed.

  After several hours, Jack decred the photo shoot was over. Zoe waited patiently for Jack to pack all his gear and props into his bags. “Good work today Zoe,” Jack said, “Obviously I got plenty of great shots for your socials, but I think you and Kev are going to love the other packages I put together.”

  “Oh? I’m looking forward to it,” Zoe responded. Jack suddenly stopped moving. He stood up and walked over to stand in front of Zoe. “Hey,” Jack said. Zoe was very uncomfortable. She hadn’t been this close to Jack without Gym Bro around since…well, since the first day they’d met.

  Jack continued, “I already said this to Kevin, but I wanted to thank you personally for this opportunity. Photography and editing is a big passion of mine and it’s difficult to break into that space as an independent contractor, so you’re doing me a big favor.”

  “It’s really no big deal. I was a little surprised at how professional you were, so I’m sure the photos will turn out great.” Zoe wished she was still wearing her sungsses so she could avert her eyes from Jack’s gaze. His eyes almost seemed sad.

  Jack said, “No seriously, it’s a big deal. Not just the opportunity, but the fact that you came out here with me alone.” He paused and took a deep breath. “It, it really means a lot to me Zoe. I was a giant dick from the moment we met and most people would never give me a second chance. But you and Kevin saw something in me I didn’t see in myself. So, thank you.” He ended his speech with a little grin before grabbing some bags to begin loading them into his car.

  Zoe was shocked. There had been no hint of sarcasm or joke in Jack’s voice. His eyes looked so sincere. The whole time she was poking fun at him and thinking of him as some kind of snake Jack thought she was being rexed and trusting.

  “I’m the asshole here,” Zoe muttered to herself.

  Jack got closer to grab the rest of the bags. “Hey,” he said, “Do you have pns after this? I know your diet is a little less strict and there’s this really tasty burger pce about twenty minutes from here. I can give you the address and we can get dinner together. If you want to. No pressure.”

  Zoe blinked her eyes and brought herself back into focus. “No, yeah. I would love to go,” she said. Jack smiled. “Cool,” he said, “I’ll send you the address, but if you want to follow me over there in your car, that’s cool too.” Zoe nodded her head. “Either way works,” she said.

  She started walking over to Gym Bro’s truck to get ready to go to dinner with Jack. She couldn’t get the thought out of her mind that she’d been holding onto this stupid grudge for months all because of a minor spat early on. She’d been ignoring all the good stuff Jack had done for them tely.

  Maybe, they really could be friends now.

  ——————————

  Josh held the piece of pstic in his hand and continued to stare at it. He knew this was real. It wasn’t a dream or some weird drug trip. It wasn’t even a surprise. It was the concrete result from weeks of tedious paperwork and waiting.

  He read the name on the State ID card again: Zoe Bang.

  Why did it have to come in the mail today? Sure, he knew that it would have to come eventually. And he knew they went through the effort of filing the documents in court and updating all the required information on different government documents all for the sake of this outcome. But that all felt like this weird imaginary process. Now, he was holding the card in his hand. This was real.

  He wasn’t Josh anymore.

  He looked at the other dramatic change on the new document. Zoe Bang, F. He wasn’t even a man anymore. Soon enough, the other documents would come in and they would all scream the same truth at him. He was legally a woman named Zoe Bang. He’d always been a woman named Zoe Bang. Josh was a fiction. A delusion he was gripping to with all his might.

  Josh watched a drop of water spsh against the pstic card. He wiped at his eyes. This was ridiculous. He should be happy. What was all that work for if he was going to do something stupid like cry at being successful? He knew what he was doing the whole time.

  He’d signed the documents, stood in court, gotten a note from a doctor, sent in more paperwork, paid for the fees out of his own limited funds, signed more paperwork, made appointments, had awkward conversations with government workers who looked dead inside, and filed even more paperwork.

  He could have stopped at any time. He knew that he could have stopped at any time. He wanted to have stopped at any time. Why didn’t he? Why did he think erasing himself from existence was such a good idea?

  “What existence?”

  More tears fell. Josh couldn’t argue about that. Zoe deserved to be real more than he ever did. She was the one with the nice job, and the healthy body, and the awesome boyfriend. What did Josh have?

  Josh stood out of the chair and walked into Zoe’s room. He pulled his shark toy from under her bed. He looked at the dumb thing and smiled. Then he frowned. More tears fell. This was pathetic. The only thing Josh had left was a reminder of an Ex girlfriend who dumped him.

  He was pathetic.

  ————————

  This couldn’t be right. Zoe turned herself in the mirror and strained her neck to get a good look at her back. The measuring tape definitely seemed like it was straight enough, but the result didn’t make any sense. Zoe sighed and let the tape fall. She went over to her tablet and made a note.

  Height: 65 inches Ribcage: 34.5 inchesBust: 42 inchesWaist: 34 inchesHips: 36 inches

  Zoe frowned at the st measurement. This seemed so wrong. She looked at herself in the mirror. Her breasts looked amazing as usual, but she could see the stupid rectangur shape of her body without them. She turned to the side. Now she could see some curves. Her side profile was her best angle for full body.

  But it made for such boring photos when she was out. She always had to make sure she sucked in her gut a little extra and turned her body in a specific pose to give herself the illusion of the perfect hourgss shape. But, when she looked at herself straight-on, she could see the truth. She looked boyish. No wonder Jack spent so much time in post-production “smoothing her out” in photos.

  She heard some noises outside the door. Gym Bro must be getting back from the gym. Zoe went to her closet and looked for something casual to wear. She settled on one of the new Bang Gang baby tees and a pair of capri joggers. She already had her gaff panties on and she didn’t feel like wearing a bra.

  She went out and saw Gym Bro sitting at the kitchen table. He already had his ptop open. Zoe smiled and bounced over. “Welcome home babe,” she said. Gym Bro looked up with a a big grin and gave her a big kiss. Zoe knelt down and rested her head on his p. She let out a small sigh.

  Gym Bro said, “I know that sound. What’s wrong?” Zoe rolled her head around on Gym Bro’s massive thigh. “Nothing,” she said. Gym Bro petted her head. That felt a little better. “Come on,” he said, “tell me what’s on your mind.” Zoe let out another sigh. “Well,” she said, “I was looking at the numbers for st months streams and everything has slowed down.”

  She continued, “So I took some measurements of my body and I think I know what the problem is. I look too much like a guy.” Gym Bro cackled. “What?” he said. Zoe frowned and looked at him. She was being serious. “I’m being serious,” she said.

  Gym Bro calmed himself down. He pulled at Zoe’s arms and lifted her onto his p. Zoe wrapped her arms around his neck. Gym Bro rubbed his hand on her cheeks and smiled at her. “Listen,” he said, “There is no way you look like a guy.”

  “But,” Zoe started. Gym Bro held up his hand and Zoe shut her mouth. Gym Bro said, “It’s fine that your follower count has slowed down for a little bit. I’m sure it’ll start going up faster soon enough.” Zoe shook her head. She jumped off Gym Bro’s p, skipped over to her room, grabbed her tablet, and scurried back.

  She opened up her notes and showed it to him. “Look,” she said as she flipped back and forth. “Last month, and now this month. Last month. This month.” Gym Bro raised his eyebrows up questioningly. Zoe sighed. She said, “Right here. Last month I had a forty-one-point-five inch bust and a thirty-two-point-five inch waist, but now I have a forty-two inch bust and a thirty-four inch waist. I’m getting fat!”

  Gym Bro nodded his head and scratched his chin. “I mean,” he stopped himself. He tried again, “First of all, you’re not fat babe.” Zoe frowned and stared at her notes. The numbers didn’t lie. She said, “It’s not just that. Look at my hip measurement.” She turned the tablet around and scrolled through a couple pages. She continued, “Every month is the same. Thirty-six, thirty-six, thirty-six. I’ve got boy hips!”

  Gym Bro grabbed the tablet from her hands and put it on the table. He pulled her in close and started kissed the top of her forehead. “Zoe, Zoe, Zoe,” Gym Bro said, “You are more than a bunch of numbers. You look great right now.” He emphasized his point by spping Zoe’s ass and making her yelp.

  Gym Bro continued, “There’s no way I’d ever confuse this ass belonging to a man.” He reached under Zoe’s shirt and started rubbing his fingers over her nipple. Zoe let out a small moan. Gym Bro continued, “And these? Getting a little chubby around the waist is a small price to pay for them getting bigger. You’ve been bulking for months now after all. To counteract the fillers dissolving, remember?”

  A light flipped on in Zoe’s head. “The fillers!” she said. She looked down at Gym Bro’s face. “Maybe we could do another round of the fillers to boost my numbers on stream. I know it’s expensive, but it’ll be worth it, right?” Gym Bro shrugged. “I don’t know,” he said, “we can’t be sure how much is still in your system. It also worked better because your boobs used to be much smaller. I’m not sure anyone would notice unless we doubled the amount from st time.”

  Zoe replied, “Then let’s double it!” She needed this. The idea of losing popurity on her stream was agonizing. She needed a win. Gym Bro shook his head. “No,” he said. Zoe slumped her shoulders. That was the end of that. Gym Bro looked at her with pity. Zoe let him pull her into a hug. This day was crappy. And after she’d gotten such good news st week with the updated ID card.

  Gym Bro said, “You don’t need to worry about the subscriber numbers anyways. Look at this.” Zoe turned her head and looked at Gym Bro’s ptop. He had it open to Zoe Bang’s email and was scrolling through a bunch of things that looked like ads. “Wait a minute,” Zoe said, “Are those?”

  Gym Bro nodded. “That’s right,” he said, “Saying ‘no’ month after month actually drove up the demand. Companies are all literally begging to become Zoe Bang’s first official sponsorship.” Zoe grabbed a chair and sat down. This was amazing news.

  Gym Bro continued, “I know it sucks that the number isn’t going up as fast anymore, but you still have over one hundred thousand subscribers on Twitch and three hundred thousand on Instagram. Plus, since you never do sponsored segments, your audience implicitly trusts things you say about different products. All these companies want to be your first sponsor because it’s basically millions of dolrs worth of good will with customers.”

  Zoe nodded her head along. She didn’t really follow, but she knew Gym Bro felt special when he got to talking about business tricks and insights. He started pointing out specific words and key phrases in some of the emails. All that really mattered to Zoe was that he was saying was good news.

  She knew changing her legal name was a great idea.

  Gym Bro finished talking and looked at Zoe expectantly. Zoe said, “This is all wonderful babe.” She gave Gym Bro a peck on his lips. He smirked. “You zoned out again, didn’t you?” Zoe blushed. “Maybe a little,” she admitted. Gym Bro shook his head with a smile on his face. He rubbed the top of Zoe’s head. “You’re silly. You know that?” Zoe giggled.

  Gym Bro scratched his chin. “You know,” he said, “there is another way we could help your breasts get bigger and make your waist smaller.” Zoe’s ears perked up. “Really?” she asked. Gym Bro nodded his head. “It might be more effective than doing a second round of fillers. Cheaper too.” Zoe nodded her head enthusiastically. “That sounds perfect. Let’s do it!”

  Gym Bro smiled. “I’ll make some calls.”