The lamplight flickered over the dining table, casting dancing shadows on the rough, scarred wood surface. Each oscillation of the flame seemed like the last gasp of vitality in that once so lively place. Fernanda ran her fingers, calloused from the sewing that now sustained her, along the edge of Carla's empty bowl. The residual smell of bland, thin cassava soup still hung in the air, a ghost of the meal that had barely warmed the belly of the seven-year-old girl. Carla watched her with large, hungry eyes, deep as wells.

  "Is the bread all gone, Mother?" the girl's voice was a wisp, laden with a hope that broke Fernanda's heart.

  "It's all gone, my angel," Fernanda lied, forcing a faint smile that didn't reach her tired eyes. "Tomorrow, Mrs. Inácia will pay me for the lace, and then we'll have bread with molasses."

  The promise was a thread of hope woven over the abyss. She knew Dona Inácia's payment would barely cover the new cotton and the basic grains for the week. The extra tip she'd received for the impeccable embroidery on the colonel's daughter's party dress was already ancient history, transformed into a chunk of salted meat that had lasted only two days.

  The fall had been dizzying. Even with Jorginho, their situation was already precarious. The fine fabrics they traded, imported from Portugal with high taxes, stopped selling overnight. Itinerant merchants, with their cheap and durable cloth, flooded the streets with prices so low the couple's shop couldn't compete. The shelves became crammed with silks and linen nobody wanted, while debts with suppliers in Lisbon piled up like a relentless, rising tide.

  It was Fernanda, desperate at the prospect of losing their roof, who suggested Jorginho join the attack on the Jabuticaba Quilombo.

  "It's just for the coins, Jorginho! To pay the interest to the loan shark," she had argued, her eyes burning with a mixture of shame and iron determination. "They say the quilombolas hide gold... and even if they don't, the reward for a runaway's head is enough for us to catch our breath."

  Jorginho, a peaceful man whose greatest pride was his daughter's smile, had hesitated. But the specter of hunger was a more persuasive counselor than fear. He left with the militia, promising to return quickly.

  The news of the attackers' defeat and Jorginho's capture came from the mouth of a wounded, bitter soldier. Fernanda's world didn't just collapse; it sank even deeper into the pit of guilt she had dug herself. From the wife of a small, indebted merchant, she became the widow of a prisoner, a supplicant whose own recklessness had condemned her.

  The shop was closed, the remaining fabrics sold for a pittance to settle a tiny part of the debts. Their "friends" vanished like rats from a sinking ship. The house, once a cozy refuge, had withered. She sold the good furniture, then the silverware, and now faced selling the very roof over their heads. Needlework, once a lady's pastime, was now her lifeline, a thin, worm-eaten plank that cracked with each passing day.

  Carla coughed in the next room, a dry, harsh cough that echoed in the empty house, a sound that grated on Fernanda's nerves. She clenched her fists, her nails digging into her palms. The girl's fever needed an herbal tea, but the merchant charged an absurd price for the herbs. Desperation and guilt were two vultures devouring her insides, day and night. The idea of seeking "charity" from the Holy House shamed her deeply, but her daughter's hunger and illness were stronger than any pride.

  It was in this twilight of the soul, with the gloom deepening in the room and the damp colonial night cold seeping through the window cracks, that someone knocked on the door. A brief, discreet, almost furtive tap. Fernanda stood up, her heart racing, beating an irregular rhythm against her ribs. It wasn't time for visitors. Perhaps the loan shark, or worse, someone coming to evict them.

  She opened the door just enough, the wood groaning softly. Outside wasn't the collector, but a tall, silent man, dressed simply, yet with an air of solidity and integrity she hadn't seen in ages. He didn't say a word, merely extended a roll of paper tied with a thick string.

  "Who... who sent you?" asked Fernanda, her voice trembling, almost a whisper.

  The man merely inclined his head in an almost imperceptible gesture and, in an instant, merged with the shadows of the unpaved street, disappearing as silently as he had appeared.

  Her heart leaping, Fernanda locked the door, her hands shaking so much she struggled to slide the bolt. She sat down again under the wavering lamplight, the air heavy with the smell of burnt oil and mold. With hesitant fingers, she unrolled the paper. The handwriting was familiar. It was his. A tremor ran through her, and a hot, heavy tear of relief and guilt fell onto the paper, slightly blurring the ink. She wiped the smudge with her dress sleeve and began to read, devouring every word.

  "My dear Fernanda, my sweet Carla,

  If this letter finds you, it is because God heard my prayers. I write not from the depths of a dungeon, but from a place of life. I am in the Jabuticaba Quilombo. I was captured, yes, but not treated like an animal. The attack was a disaster, but my capture was my salvation. Here, I am a man. A man who works, who breathes without the yoke of another's burden or eternal debt.

  Fernanda, the image of your weariness and our daughter's pale face haunts me every night. I know the struggle you face. The city consumes everything; poverty humiliates. That is why I ask, no, I beg you: Come live here. Bring Carla and come to the quilombo.

  Here there are no masters and slaves, no loan sharks or taxes that suck our souls dry. It's very different from what I was told. Currently I'm working in a shop selling chilled sweets, the salary is small but allows me to buy much more than back there. I have new clothes and I work on a full stomach.

  The letter contains a map of a place where the quilombolas trade with the Holy City. You can go there, speak with the guards, and they will guide you to the quilombo, to where I live.

  I await you anxiously. The love I have for you is the only wealth I carried here, and I want it back.

  Forever yours,

  Jorginho."

  Fernanda read the letter once, twice, three times. The words were a soothing balm on her open wounds and, at the same time, a blow of reality. Jabuticaba Quilombo. The place she had sent her husband to die or profit from the death of others, was now offering her life. The irony was a bitter, metallic taste in her mouth, like blood. But Jorginho's letter didn't have a trace of bitterness; it breathed life, future, and a tacit forgiveness she felt she didn't deserve.

  He's always so good with words, that's why I love him...

  She looked at Carla's empty bowl. She remembered the dry cough that tore the night's silence, the blind desperation that led her to suggest that foolish attack, the constant, icy cold in her stomach, the daily companion of hunger. She remembered Jorginho's laughter, a warm, contagious sound she thought she had lost forever by her own fault.

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  Fear was an icy giant wrapping around her chest, squeezing her lungs. The journey would be dangerous, a woman with a child, traversing unsafe roads. Life in the quilombo, uncertain and shrouded in mystery. But life here? This wasn't life; it was a slow, agonizing, and humiliating decline, paved by her own mistakes.

  The next day, with a determination she hadn't felt in months, she used the last of her money to buy a bread with molasses for Carla and an herbal tea for the fever. Only a handful of coins remained, but it was enough to hire a cart to take them to the Holy City and, from there, to the trading point mentioned on the map.

  Inside the stuffy, dusty cart on the way to the Holy City, Fernanda played with her daughter's thin, lackluster hair. Carla, wearing worn-out clothes and clearly skinny, seemed to have a bit more life after the bread with molasses, her dirty face lit by a brief glimpse of contentment.

  "Where are we going, Mama?" the girl asked, watching the monotonous landscape pass by.

  "We're going to see your father," Fernanda replied, pulling her closer. "We're going to have a better life, my angel. A life together."

  The journey to the Holy City lasted several days, each sunset bringing a new chill and a new apprehension. When they finally spotted the city's outlines, Fernanda noticed something that made her shudder. Almost everyone on the streets wore those colorful, practical clothes and dresses the peddlers sold in White Sand. Seeing that uniformity, a feeling of bitter pity for all the fabric merchants, who were surely losing their jobs, washed over her. That fabric, once a symbol of her ruin, now caused her nothing but deep aversion. But putting that aside, she had a new mission: to find someone who could take them to the meeting point.

  Without much hope, she headed to the first stable she saw, trying to find a driver. There, she spotted a short, chubby man with a calm demeanor, feeding oats to a healthy horse.

  "Excuse me, sir," she called, her voice still weak. "Are you a peddler?"

  The chubby man turned, his eyes scanning the skinny woman in worn-out clothes, holding the hand of an equally thin child. It was an unusual sight in the prosperous Sacred City, but not entirely rare.

  "Yes, ma'am, I'm Francisco," he replied, with a surprisingly gentle voice. "What can I do for you?"

  Awkwardly, Fernanda took the letter from her dress pocket, crumpled and dirty from the journey.

  "I... I would like you to take me to this place, please."

  Francisco took the letter, his eyes scanning the address. He recognized it immediately.

  "It's your lucky day, ma'am," he said, an easy smile appearing on his face. "I'm heading there right now, and the cart won't be too full. I can take you."

  The woman let out a soft sigh of relief and, with trembling hands, took the few coins left in her pocket. It was no more than a hundred réis. She extended the coins to Francisco, her gaze pleading.

  "Please, sir, take me there... But this is all I have to pay you."

  Francisco shook his head, refusing the money with a gentle wave of his hand.

  "I can't accept that, ma'am. Don't worry, I'll take you for free."

  If I took all the money from a dying mother, he thought, the Popess would kill me if she found out. Besides, it's not like I'm hard up.

  "But sir, I insist..." Fernanda tried, feeling the weight of the charity.

  Again, Francisco shook his head, his expression friendly but firm.

  "Don't worry about it. I have business to do there anyway. The company is payment enough."

  As he said this, he led his horse from the stable, hitched to a robust cart. There was a difference, however: the wheels were coated with a thick layer of black rubber. He helped mother and daughter climb up, instructing them not to step on the merchandise, which consisted of paper packages, several steel bars, and small light gems, glowing faintly, as well as crystal glasses. A small load, but one that seemed valuable.

  Francisco didn't waste time. Soon they were leaving the city, the cart moving with surprising smoothness for such a potholed road. Along the way, it was possible to see a constant flow of other carts coming and going. Many of them were piled high with the same fabrics and clothes Fernanda had seen in the city. Watching this, a chill ran down her spine, and she couldn't help but ask.

  "So... these clothes... they all come from the quilombo?"

  Francisco, now with a straw hat on his head to protect him from the sun, kept his eyes focused on the road but nodded.

  "Not just them," he replied, pointing with his chin to the wheels of his own cart. "Notice how the ride is less bumpy, even on this cart road? These rubber tires are from there too."

  Carla, curious, leaned over to look at the wheels with interest.

  "How different, mister!"

  A conflicting sensation invaded Fernanda: a residual hatred for the quilombo, which had ruined her previous life, sprouted alongside a fragile, but stubborn, hope for a better life.

  "I see..." she murmured, lost in her thoughts.

  Overcome by this mix of emotions, she didn't want to question anything else, remaining in a pensive silence during the long journey. The scalding midday sun burned their heads and the road dust covered their clothes and skin.

  Francisco looked back and saw the two suffering from the heat. Reluctantly, he took off his own straw hat and handed it to Fernanda.

  "Take it. At least for the girl."

  "You don't have to..." Fernanda protested weakly. "You're already doing too much for us..."

  "Ha ha ha!" he laughed, a genuine, warm sound. "I'm not doing anything. You're the ones keeping me company. It's always good to have someone to talk to on the road, even if the conversation is silent."

  Reluctantly, but deeply grateful, she took the hat. The inside still held the warmth from Francisco's head. She carefully placed it on Carla's head.

  "Then... I accept. Thank you very much, good sir."

  Hmm, I'm not used to being called 'good sir', thought Francisco, adjusting the scarf around his neck. I'm just being generous because, at the moment, life is smiling on me. Trade with the quilombo is profitable like never before. I even formed a chartered trading company with other merchants to export their goods. I think I'll be able to retire in a nice mansion... But without slaves, definitely. Wouldn't be wise to make an enemy of them...

  The journey seemed shorter with these thoughts, and soon they spotted the destination: a busy clearing at the edge of the forest, where several stalls, benches, and tables with colorful awnings offered shade. The air was full of voices, the smell of simple food, and the dust raised by the carts. Some peddlers were even selling alcoholic beverages to the other merchants. On the quilombo's side, an increasingly wide variety of products was on display: piles of clothes, rubber items like the tires that were becoming popular among wealthier merchants, and other artifacts Fernanda didn't recognize.

  "We're here, girls," Francisco announced, pulling the reins. "I don't know what you plan to do here, but I wish you both good luck. If you'll excuse me, I have many products to sell and buy."

  Fernanda climbed down from the cart awkwardly, her weak legs trembling, and helped Carla down. Francisco took his cart to an organized line of other merchants. At the end of the line, all products were meticulously evaluated by serious men, and payment was made on the spot. Then, the merchants went to another line to buy the quilombo's merchandise. The process seemed bureaucratic but was surprisingly agile, with both parties showing an almost palpable eagerness to strike good deals.

  Meanwhile, Fernanda and Carla, hand in hand, cautiously approached one of the guards who watched all movements with a serious, vigilant gaze. He was a tall black man with a bearing that inspired respect and a little fear.

  "Good afternoon, sir," Fernanda began, her voice faltering. "I... I am Jorginho's wife. He told me, by letter, that I could... enter the quilombo..."

  To her surprise, the guard's severe expression softened immediately upon hearing the name. His eyes scanned her thin figure and worn-out clothes, and Fernanda could see not only recognition but a flash of genuine pity in his gaze.

  "Just a moment," he said, his voice quieter now.

  He turned and quickly went to speak with another guard a bit further away, exchanging a few quick words. He soon returned.

  "Just follow me," he ordered, with a gesture.