I want help and attention from friends and family, wanting their love, care and sympathy, but as an effort to help them I push them away.

  I want to be with all my friends, up all night chatting away, be in their arms in a warm embrace, but I think I'm annoying so I push them away.

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  No matter what they say and no matter what they do, I will always think it's better if I'm away from them.

  I always want their love and affection, want them to take my cares away, but I always seem to convince myself that I'm a piece of garbage anyway.

  I don't wanna be by myself, I don't want to go through life alone, but I can never stay and convince myself that I'm needed.

  I try to help and I want help, but in the end I just push them all away.